I should’ve listened to Saleeta originally. But it’a for the best… I think I really never did love him I just felt swayed by his words to say it. But with his constant talk of basically “upgrading” how could I not feel, left out? I hope he isn’t taking it harshly. He’s a great guy and all but we aren’t and weren’t in love. Just hormones. Good thing we never pressed it, lol.
Sadly I also realize that my mind was substituting him for who I really wanted and thought about it. It just took awhile for the haze to clear. I feel really bad about everything but its just how I feel. 100% complicated Tim.